There’s a reason they call it growing pains. Cause it hurts like crazy. I know that God knows what in the world He is doing with me, but sometimes I want to holler out, “Hey God, I think you picked the wrong girl”. Did you know God that I get nervous in crowds? Did you know God that new people make me sweat (yes, I realize that may be TMI, but it’s true)? Did you know that I stumble over my words? Did you know that although I can write, speaking makes me want to crawl under a table? Did you know God that I am a mess? Did you know God that I can’t do this on my own? Did you did you did you did you did you know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And He says, “Yes, dear, I know you better than you know yourself.” So I will trust Him. He is doing a new thing, and it hurts for now. Pushing a baby plant up through the wasteland of my soul requires some serious ground breaking, but the stream that waters it will heal the hurts.
Isaiah 43:19 See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.