It seems to me that a lot of people in and around my life are hurting right now, or maybe it is just that God is forcing me into a place where I am able to look outside of my own trials and have compassion and love for others. So weather it is that more people are struggling, or I am just noticing it more, regardless, I am hurting for them.
I have been quick to say with my lips that the hurt I have experienced is there so that I will have empathy for others and be able to help others. But, how often have these words passed through my mouth and never penetrated the depths of my heart. It was more a phrase I would say to get others to leave me alone and not delve any further into my pain. By putting on a happy face and saying, oh everything happens for a reason, they would leave me alone. But, I didn’t really believe it. Until now. I can see outside of my pain enough now to know that it’s not all about me. To realize that the things I go through aren’t all about me, that maybe God is training this selfish stubborn bull-headed mess of girl to follow Him so that I might someday lead others to the same amazing grace that saved me and saves me again day after day.
The depths of the pit, the depths of depression, are deep. And dark. And lonely. And if you are there, it’s only for a season and don’t let Satan convince you otherwise. The sun will rise again. Bu for me personally, I think it might do me some good to place a trampoline at the bottom of my pit so that every time I fall in, it launches me back out with a giggle! LOL! And the trampoline is God’s grace and the joy that can only be found in knowing his grace IS enough. He does have a purpose even for those of us pit dwellers, who have preferred for years only to stare at the cold dark walls of ourselves. Through him we are risen from the dead, so don’t let Satan bury you alive! Put up a fight!
Ephesians 3:20 Now all glory to God who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think. Glory to Him in the church and in Christ Jesus through all generations forever and ever! Amen.