There’s a reason they call it growing pains. Cause it hurts like crazy. I know that God knows what in the world He is doing with me, but sometimes I want to holler out, “Hey God, I think you picked the wrong girl”. Did you know God that I get nervous in crowds? Did you know God that new people make me sweat (yes, I realize that may be TMI, but it’s true)? Did you know that I stumble over my words? Did you know that although I can write, speaking makes me want to crawl under a table? Did you know God that I am a mess? Did you know God that I can’t do this on my own? Did you did you did you did you did you know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And He says, “Yes, dear, I know you better than you know yourself.” So I will trust Him. He is doing a new thing, and it hurts for now. Pushing a baby plant up through the wasteland of my soul requires some serious ground breaking, but the stream that waters it will heal the hurts.
Isaiah 43:19 See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.
I feel the same way. It is easy, most of the time, to write, but to get up and speak, oh, that is such the different story! But, you know, it seems that each time I have done it, God has blessed it, and I know He will bless you, too!
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